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<\/p>\nI had planned on starting writing about my HSCT journey on January 1, 2022.\u00a0 Seemed like a logical place to start. New Year, 31 days from the beginning of treatment, easy package tied up with a clear timeline bow. But I\u2019ve been feeling antsy all day to write. I\u2019m feeling poignantly aware of how short the time is between now and January 31. How many things there are to do, people to see, projects to wrap up.<\/p>\n
I woke up feeling like a racehorse or Greyhound dog behind the starting gate or a sprinter crouched at the starting line, waiting for the starting bell. Pent up and ready to run. But there is no racetrack. There is no clear oval with lane lines. I think I\u2019m more like a windup toy who, when let go, will move and spin in chaotic directions.<\/p>\n
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Until today I\u2019ve been feeling like I had acres of time and I\u2019ve been slowly plodding through what needs to get done in order to be prepared to leave. Now it suddenly feels like not enough time for everything I think I need or want to do.<\/p>\n
I have a battery of medical appointments in the next couple of weeks. January 1 starts off three days of colonoscopy prep, which may be a twisted omen for how this year will play out. Later in the week I have an appointment with a hematologist\/oncologist to get all my baseline labs done and make a game plan for recovery treatment when I return. I have an appointment set up with a spine Dr. to figure out if there\u2019s anything more that can be done with my hip pain. I am meeting with a new physical therapist to get a game plan for recovery work when I get back.<\/p>\n
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I have a packing list, but is it complete? I have a to do list, but am I missing anything? I want to make a will. I want to make sure everyone knows where all the numbers are for accounts and commitments that run our life that I manage. I am 99.99% sure I will live through this, but there\u2019s always a chance and I want to make sure everything is handled in case. Morbid, I know.<\/p>\n
So, this is my preamble or maybe more correctly my pre-ramble. It is New Year\u2019s Eve and, like many of us in the world we are staying home, in our pajamas and likely in bed before midnight.\u00a0 Another year that goes out with a whimper with a new one coming in with held breath.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I had planned on starting writing about my HSCT journey on January 1, 2022.\u00a0 Seemed like a logical place to start. New Year, 31 days from the beginning of treatment, easy package tied up with a clear timeline bow. But I\u2019ve been feeling antsy all day to write. I\u2019m feeling poignantly aware of how short … <\/p>\n